Our dossier went to China on May 13th, and our LID was June 1st. Progress, finally! It feels like we waited so long to get to this point when, in reality, it has only been 5 months. I just want to jump on a plane and go get him. He has a home, a family who loves him. The wait just plain stinks. I hate that he will have to wait another 5 months to come home.
Waiting is hard, especially for me, since patience really isn't my strong suit. I'm more of an instant gratification type of girl, but God is working on me. He is using the adoption process to teach me patience.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7
Control also seems to be an issue for me. I like to be in control, I love to be in control, and the lack of control over the timeline to China is really a struggle for me. We have done everything we can on our end. We now wait on China. At least that's how I feel most of the time. How quickly I seem to forget who is really in control, who we are really waiting on, God. My God who loves me, must be working on something through this wait. I have to constantly remind myself that it is not all about me, it is about Him. His timing is always perfect. I may not understand why, but I do trust that He is doing what is in everyones' best interests.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Please continue to pray for our Sammy, especially his health. May God bless him with good health. Our 2 year old, Malachi, has been sick with strep this week. He has been miserable and in my arms 24-7 just wanting to be held. As I comfort one son my arms also ache for another. When Sammy is sick, burning up with fever, does anyone comfort him? Is he held? Loved? I can't seem to wrap my mind around a world where babies are left to comfort themselves all.the.time. I lose sleep at night thinking of him alone, lacking in love and affection. May the Lord make these next few months fly so we can finally be together.
